I've rolled with the punches, and reamined totally inactive, like Buddah. I then realized that I have amended my behaviors and maintained a consistent benefit of being here, and have aimed to maximize that by petitioning for assisted suicide, and for my recent posts and for what I've beend tending to with my time thinking and assessing, I know that we are all moving with emotions and they can be attributed to frequencies, and single frequnecies, like a very odd Hello, and the consistent items are very relevant to how we are considtioned, and how we lose site of conditioning ourselves. I've been very accepting, and have tried some methods used on me, and I gain knowledge fromt hat.

I changed, with my diagnosis, for the stigma applied to me, and for having my responsibilities manhandled to where I have an adult protective worker. I spell out her obligations to me, and she is consistently not responding to emails. I think it'll be a test of how I communicate, especially for the circumstances that were also Jesus's (very dramatic social effects and fluctuations that required nothing of me but to passively observe), and I think that for Jesus having quotes in the Bible, everyone is there own Jesus... But, I have gained insights, and have used math because I met a mathematician who blew my mind to the new context of my perceptional capabilities. I understand now that I've been consistently abused, and that it allows me to understand problems, and how to solve all my own once I get out of here.

I know now that I have resources that say that I should have freedoms and freedom to the full capacity of my objectives, and wants, and with acknowedgement that I have a right to pursue happiness.

I wont get the assisted suicide, and I have often considered that all I have to do is hang on, because to be suicidal, you can also assess thoughts on death. I once attributed the symptoms of bipolar to lifethreatening itesm like lack of security, and crying out for help according to very basic and fundemntal things per our society. I need nothing anymore. I've gone consistently without food, and water, and basically applied hell to myself to manage my environment for myself in it, and now I'm just patiently waiting because I can prove with math that I'm right about what I deserve and am owed, and for what I can achieve and have and do. I know that I've suffered conditioning, and that I don't trust many people, and basically no one, to condition me but myself, for how incompetent people have been in the past, and basically acting in accordance that I'm not flesh and blood to anyone, that my body has gotten to a tipping point of a state... Conventional medicane has no way to effectively manage my physical problems, and I have the right to pay an herbalist... I learned that we can terraform Earth, and even spin it and shoot it into space, and apply laser beams that would start and manage the tarraforming of other planets. We can polarize, and items like that. So, I think I'm basically gotten to the realization that we all die anyway, and what's it matter when, and I don't have to hurry it, or even suffer the last six months of a devastating existence, and I have a lot to offer, even it'll be improved minute by minute, likely, until I can experience the world, be in it, be heard, and listened to, respected. The negligence that is suffered, there's also micromanaging, and it's very upsetting that I can see how it comes down to stigma. The things I've learned are awful truths about what my family is on paper. I may need a therapist as a resources, and I've had a therapy session or more spied on. There's unethical behavior that surrounds my mental health care.

So, I feel like to get a new cat would betray him in some way. I think we somewhat are okay with each other and I know that I want better for him.
I'd like to attend college, and find a way to ensure the courts can see reasons why it'd be in my best interest if it were arranged that I could benefit from a university of their choosing and have that paid for.
I may wrote here and there, but I'd really prefer if I have anything to write, that I be able to speak freely. I do not speak freely. I don't speak. I haven't spoken to a person since my doctors appointment a month ago...
I have a proven need for medical marijuana, and I think I could possibly sue the negligent parties in my life for a supply of that.
I haven't been able to think properly, and am in a situation where I can't much see myself, or base things on myself, but on the perceived and expected judgements of those around me. Some are positive, and life-affirming, which includes only my adult protective worker.

I'd like to ensure that my relationships don't scream "clingy" or some other type of precursor of a modifier that could just make forming a relationship very complicated.

I have money goals, and would choose to buy a killer house, or pay for an apartment for a year and make mad money. And then buy a cheap forest, and begin work on it.
I have no relationships so non built on anything, but I'd like to learn to dance, like break dance, and write and play for an audience some music, because I likely wont get to collaborate. That is an existing future reality.

Things don't look like they'll end well for me, and every reason why can be identified, and I'm confident that I'm not to blame. Maybe, but it wont matter one day either.

It was suggested that I introduce myself in the Intro page. This is fine.

I want to have new clothes, and so many, but enough. I have not enough. I don't have a thing without holes, and one pair that is holding up, only. I'd like adequate nutrition, and a home with easy to clean surfaces, and a futon.
I may not have any of it. I may actually leave in a body bag, like my neighbors were talking about.
I'd like to have no reason to make recordings anymore. My environment is ****ed, and I know it, and it can be known.
I think I'd like to ensure that proper respects are paid to taxes and such so that America can get a grip on applying taxes to acute and nationally accepted goals. There should be no homeless, you know? I'll fix what I can, mostly the things I've considered for myself.