i'm not sure if this belongs in this thread or not. it's kind of a crossover between dissociation and ptsd related.

i have spent years trying to explain to certain family members how trauma is different with each person. it's been a mixed response from them, some saying people just 'get over' things and some kind of seeming to understand here and there that some people are not the same in that ability and have effects of it.

i can do ok for times where i can talk about trauma in general, no real details of what i remember, but today was one of those where it came up which led to me trying to explain how it was for me, how i dissociated because it was so scary, etc.

i'm not sure why i try to explain. but i started feeling this fear inside and then found myself visualizing trying to soothe a small child and talking to her to try and calm things down.

i guess there is no real point to writing this except to vent at this point.