i do have a psychiatrist. i have talked to her (more in the past) about a lot of it. i just haven't done actual work with her regarding things because of my lack of time or stability, etc. so don't want to really get too, too deep into things...but she knows about everything.

i think maybe i need to bring up specific things with her and see if she can help me maybe sort some things out, but i am not sure how to since i'm not ready to see her often yet to work on things.

i wish i would stop trying to explain to my family, but i still have part of me that wants them to be gentle with me and not so close minded or focus just on their opinion.