So the taper off of seroquel was a lot more manageable than I expected. Of course there were days that were dam near unbearable, buthe I did reach a new level of clarity within a very short amount of time. I still have had an incredibly difficult time with attempting to access memories, words, and sentences. My speech, at times, is disjointed and nonsensical. I have a hard time with word retrieval, I will know what it is I want to say, and when it comes out it is incoherent and confusing. however, it is much betterbthan while i was on seroquel. So ibwill take that as a small win. moving on to my experience lithium, it too, was a disaster. at first there wasn't much of a difference, I still was depressed, suicidal, and had foggy cogintion. I did however start having more good moments. But then I tried to titrate up to 300 mg. And the same soupy, muddy, feeling that plagued my seroquel experience had returned. So the next day I went back down to 150mg. Within the next few days I had a raging headache for 5 days and a bit of nausea as well. The headache wrapped like a band around my skull and nothing helped. I was hydrated. I was sleeping. But it would not go away. So I am now not taking any medication and am still depressed as hell. Suicidal at times. I think about death everyday. And now it feels like I was left with a few presents from the seroquel excursion that will influence me for the rest of my life. My pdoc wants to try me on lamictal. However, I am not to keen on the pharmaceuticals I have been prescribed so far, so I'm quite hesitant. Plus, I want to try a few alternatives. Before I go any further with that route. Anyway, thanks for your support. I appreciate it immensely! If You Have anything to say. Feel free to comment. Have a great night.