I'm going to try doing something that I don't want to do - going against avoiding people. I even did it to my best friend here. ITS NOT MY FAULT. I'm going to socialize more and having 6 days left isn't an excuse not to.

But I feel like I have to be high a number of times so I know what it's like to be in a good mood that isn't a 4/10.

One guy told me that I'm cool but they respect my need to isolate which is a twisted irrational thing that I shouldn't be doing and it kills me. Narcissism aside, I think I'm great but people have to talk to me first. That's the only reason I made friends here.

I feel like I would do it for everyone that has these symptoms.

Any support would be ok but if it's a lot of support, I might be less anxious and I'd definitely do it.

Logical non sense is filling up my brain. I'm a 7/10 agitated.