Thank you all for your kind words (and the hugs)!

Sorry to hear about your situation, Keyslost. It sucks to be surrounded by critical people. Don't be bothered by criticisms though, because I think you're a great person.

Thank you pegasus for reminding me to be gentle with myself, or to love myself. It's important to do that, for if we failed to love ourselves, we couldn't expect others to do so.

AzulOscuro, thank you. Talk about acceptance, it's quite difficult for me to accept myself as a "nobody". I wish to be something more purposeful, more meaningful. I wish I had the courage to overcome challenges. I worked out, I read books, I got advice from friends and family about my issues and followed it. Things just didn't seem to change, except I was getting old. 24 hours a day pass by in a flash. I'm on the verge of giving up, might just grow old and die.