BayBrony thanks for the book recommendation. Puzzclar I'll look up Calm. ScarletPimpernel, funny, I have problems with PMR too, can be triggering; I'll look up guided techniques, haven't done them in a while, thanks. laxer12, thanks for link and sharing how it works for you, appreciate it.

I guess we don't have seasoned veterans in mindfulness/meditation (or haven't seen my thread), and I was hoping their views could help this newbie (and others). I have gone to zen type forums before, but usually the only response I get is that I should get a teacher. But I'm not that dedicated yet and also don't have money for that kind of stuff right now...