Being alone forever. Everyone I see, I can't touch. I can't have friends. I can't have girlfriends. I can only view the world from outside and see everyone having fun, but me. I'm not allowed to have fun with others. It's like I've been chosen for a duty and I don't get to say no. Destined and chosen to be absolutely isolated from everyone.

It's just grand being me. Everyone moves on and things turn out well for them while I sit in the rain and rust. So much laughter I hear and in my core I tremble from jealousy and longing. Why am I not allowed to have that.