I have never have had productive time alone. Growing up I wasn't worried about making the right friends or hanging around the right people nor did I care aboutmyself enough to get into something productive, like maybe something that I could be proud of today. Now that i am older I am finding it really hard to enjoy being alone. I am getting piano which I love and hope to play awesome one day, that really helps me . When I am done reading a book or playing the piano and I am alone all I do is cry I am so sick of crying and feeling sorry for myself .
This personality in me is not helping me in anyway to make new friends . All I do is think about the negative things that have happen to me instead of enjoying whats right in front of me . I hope to grow out of this .