Because I suffered from a series of depressive episodes in my life, no one believed me when I told them (after I experienced a traumatic betrayal and loss that left me financially helpless) that I was MORE THAN JUST DEPRESSED. I recall feeling as if my brain stem had snapped. Suddenly I could no longer do anything - be on time, multi-task, walk my dog, think clearly, carry objects etc. I was walking and talking while inside I was SCREAMING. I wanted to tear my own hair out. Plus I went into a deep major depression that no combination of anti-depressants could make better - not even easier to bear.

That was in 2002. Fast forward to 2014. After 12 years of being told I was suffering from treatment resistant depression, one doctor asks me my history. And says,"Well you know you have ptsd."
I started to cry and said "I have been trying to tell everybody that for years but no one has listened."

So since then I started from scratch on my road to recovery. I lost a decade of my life. I am new to this forum and hope to learn much and support many.

I am Babysteps4me -hi 😊