i've been really thinking about it and just talked to a friend.

i think that the fact that the last year has been so hard on me and i don't feel that he has understood what i've been through. my feelings are hurt. i e.mailed him about it but haven't received a reply.

i want a full life, but don't feel like working around something. is that wrong? shouldn't it be easier to just be?

xoxoxo pat