Hi everyone!

I'm new to this forum and coming in search of enlightenment

I've been on the classic roller coaster the last couple of years with the climax reaching two months ago when I was unable to leave my bed, just wanting to die. And I'm very confused right now of what is actually happening, and my doctors sure ain't making it better. I was hoping that someone here might shed some light on it.

Short version of my concern:
I'm suspecting that my 7 years on SSRI now has pushed me into the Bipolar spectrum (type II). What is funny is that I was recently put on Lamictal and when I reached the dose of 200, I started to feel awesome, changing from one day to another. Could it be that the real source of my mood switching is actually due to the SSRI and that I'm "fixing" it with Lamictal? If that's the case, it seems ridiculous to solve one drug problem by introducing another instead of just quitting the first one, getting to the source of the problem.

Heavier version;
I've been on SSRI for the last 7 years (starting as a way to handle panic attacks and social anxiety), and the last 3-4 years I've been experiencing episodes of depression and episodes of hypomania. I have a quite stressful job and I have found that when I'm highly stressed, I actually feel better than usual, and when I'm on vacation, I'm often depressed.

The last year this have escalated, starting with a depression that just made me feel totally numb. Because of that I tried to get of my antidepressants, which made me feel even worse until I started again and went into hypomania for a few days. Somewhere around here, I also started drinking on a daily basis. My doctor changed my meds from Celexa to Zoloft and pulled me up to 150mg. It didn't really work, still depressed, still drinking, still going in and out of hypomania. Then I started with Lamictal and only a few days after I got up to 200, I just flipped into an awesome mode and have been staying quite good from that point. I've stopped drinking, feel generally more energized etc.(a bit hypomanic from time to time, but not too extreme).

So now I'm wondering if all this crap is due to the antideprassants, and if it can be solved if I just skip them or lower the dose, or if I have actually developed Bipolarity disorder typ II.

I'm now 28 years old and I have quite a few cases in my family that have been suffering from depression, borderline, eating disorders etc. but I haven't heard of any bipolarity.

Has anyone had any similar experience?

Btw, I'm a Swede so my spelling might not be the best....