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Originally Posted by Zayabean
I can't say I'm depressed at the moment. I'm not in a low. I do feel sad. But mostly, I'm so tired. Exhausted from the years of fighting. I don't want to fight anymore. I need a rest. It's too hard to keep myself afloat. Pick myself back up every time I fall... Life isn't always easy, but why does it have to be so damn hard?! All the time
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What you say is so familar to me Zayabean. It feels like treading water - a constant endless effort just to keep from sinking.
I got over my depression and I think you can too. One of of the things that really shocked me once it was gone was just how much energy I now have. I didn't realize it, but being depressed was a constant, constant drain on me even when I wasn't actively stressing or ruminating about something. When the fog lifted, it was the most wonderful thing. Just sitting quietly and doing nothing, I have the feeling of growing health and vitality as if I'm absorbing energy from my surroundings.
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