Well I have spent time in inpatient treatment, and I'm worried that if they knew about that, they would want to put me back.. or if somehow that was seen as a threat to myself and therefore I would lose the confidentiality aspect of it all (since I know being suicidal makes you lose confidentiality, but what if they mistaken SI for suicidal tendencies?) I don't know how it all works out.. plus I don't really have any doctor I trust currently, but hopefully when I get one I will get the courage to tell. I hope you get the courage to do what you need to do as well.