Depression wrings the energy out of us and tells us we suck the most. Meds can take a long time to help,and several attempts to find what suits you, but meds plus therapy is usually helpful. Hang on in there and try to remind yourself what good things there are about you ( or what others say,even if you don't believe them) it may help t write them down to help you get through each hour. Yearning for you to find hope and peace.