For the last few days, I have been extremely depressed again, the third such time this year alone. It always seems to happen around birthdays. My dad's was on June 13th. The last time I was depressed was on May 5th for a few weeks and then I got better. That was until the two new personalities popped up in the last week. One of them is 2 years old and doesn't know anything yet and the other one is at least 90 and believes she is being controlled by an outside force. Now I have all their thoughts in my head and its driving me crazy! I am unable to function and go to school or get a job. I am nothing. I haven't been eating much lately. I also haven't been building my model airplanes in the last few days because I have been switching too often between my 10 different personalities. On some days I miss 90% of the day. This is the first time today that I'm myself and am able to type. All this is making me feel down about my self. I can't even cry. I haven't been able to cry for months, if not years. During the personalities that I am more aware of, I also ( just like the 90 year old personality) feel an outside force controlling my movements and thoughts. This is mainly true in the "bird" mode where I believe that I can fly. I start flapping my arms and singing like a crazy person. How embarrassing! That also makes me depressed. I believe that the government is controlling me for entertainment as mentioned in a previous post I did awhile back. There are some days where I can't complete a sentence and it comes out all mixed up. I get confused easily. I am currently seeing a therapist, a psychiatrist, and someone who does EMDR for my DID. I also take my pills.