1. I always had extreme anxiety and stress and depression. Since past 5 years, I havent slept for more than 3-4 hrs on an average on weekdays.

2. I am a programmer. We are given new user requirements and we need to figure out how to fulfill those. However, more often than not, I am unable to resolve/understand fully the logic in office and come back home imagining different scenarios of logic.

My active brain does not let me eat dinner, go to the bathroom and ofcourse sleep. I keep thinking the way to resolve the issue. I keep getting up and going to the computer for it. I even tried removing my computer altogether but that doesnt stop my brain.

Everyday I feel like a bigger loser than the previous day. I make some silly mistake at the office, or what I did doesnt get completed successfully due to some error or the other, and I come to know about it right at the very end of the office end time, and I come home with anxiety that I need to perform those tasks again in the morning.
The anticipation of tomorrow and what needs to be done is running all over my mind.

Im 27 years old, and Im reaching my breakdown again. And Ive tried suicide multiple times in the past, but not since I started working 9 to 5. I wake up in the middle of the night (if i get sleep in the earlier part of the night) crying. I cant take it anymore. I cant open my eyes and cant shut em off.