what you want to do with your life, I still don't know the answer to that. I am an accountant, and work is stable, but it is a paycheque not a love. Do what you love right?
whether you want a lot of people around or want to mostly be left alone, ahhhh, no people , no no. Big crowds freak me out. I'm small and have been whisked away om crowds a few times
where you want to live, I moved from the country to the city a few years back. I would like to go back to country life
whether you want to have pets or hate having to care for them, Love my furry babies. 7 cats and a dog. When I say that they have saved my life so many times, I really do mean it.
whether you want to exercise a lot and eat healthy or you just want to have fun I need to exercise more and eat better. I think that I am eating myself to death. I don't know how to stop.
whether you want a romantic partner or that's more trouble than it's worth I am on marriage #4 now. It's been almost five years with my current. For me, that is a record!!
whether you think you have a lot of love to give or that you do people a favor by not getting involved because you KNOW you'll dump them later I don't think that I have love to give. Sometimes I am not even sure what love means
Does this happen to anybody else who has bipolar disorder but not borderline personality disorder? I'm always changing. Each time I flipflop it's because I really, clearly see that the other way is all wrong for me and a terrible mistake. I last a few months on my latest "fad" but then, oops, THAT was wrong.Yes, but I don't think that it is a BP/BPD issue, I think that it is just my personality
I ask because a while back I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder (the last 2 times it's been bipolar) and I wonder if that was true also.
I'm not asking for people here to diagnose me, just whether this has been your experience too.
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