It really is. I wake up every day thinking another day in my living nightmare This is true and I think I am going to talk to her about it again and tell her it has to be this way for now until I am approved for disability and even after maybe.

I was told by someone that hiring a guardian ad litem would mean giving up my parental rights completely and I do not want that, even though that would honestly be no different that the rights I have now, which are none. The attorney I hired told me it would not be a big deal to take my son and move farther than the 75 miles since I was sure he was suffering in his father's house when he visited. Turns out he flat out lied. I tore him a new one, believe me!!!

I am definitely trying to reach out for help for my depression, but no meds have helped thus far and I am thinking of trying alternatives, but not sure what yet.

Thank you SO much!!!