Okay well I guess that makes sense that it's chemical that way. I always thought when people say "it's chemical" they mean like.. it's just some way you naturally are because your chemicals are already messed up. I didn't really realize that situational stuff actually messed with the chemicals.

I haven't been receiving treatment long in general, but I have been doing therapy and meds at the same time all along. I just don't really feel like either is doing an adequate job. I am starting a new medicine now, but I do not like the therapist I currently see, but it's just temporarily. I do like the one I have at school, but really I don't think it helps with any "root" problems.

CBT and EMDR sound like things I would be interested in, but I'm a poor college student with no insurance and I can't find any sliding scale places that do these things. I will keep trying to find someone, I guess..

Thank you sunrise