Had an amazing group therapy because there was only two people including me that showed up. We just talked philosophically about rrational thoughts and about mental health for almost two hours.

The other guy said that by looking at me, he wouldn't think that I'd have these problems and asked to help any time I need. Not many people do that..

The therapist was asking why I was forced to be in his groups for two months and not the other place which he said is basically designed for me specifically or schizophrenia.

My negative symptoms were getting good and so is my mood but that won't last. I believe it's the pack a day of cigarettes.

For a bit, we specifically talked about paranoia and how I would think someone would walk in and attack me or that the therapist would psychologically harm me. I need to think better than that and use logic but at this time the paranoia is good too.

I sound like a smoker when I talk but it's better than hearing my own voice for some reason.