have you considered seeing a therapist that specializes in eating disorders in conjunction with a dietitian? that might be a good idea so they can kind of work on those behaviors with you while also trying to challenge you to try new foods, like exposure therapy, etc.

have you ever been in eating disorder therapy of any kind or are you willing to if you have not?

i guess i have to also ask because of your rigid behaviors with food and eating and your fear of weight gain, do you feel like it is out of control, and would you like to change it?