My heart goes out to anyone whose been looking for a job, long term, only to find the same anxiety of rejection. I've been there, and it truly takes an emotional toll on you. But the key is to realize that when searching for a job there will be way many closed doors before you get the open door. The key is "don't give up." I helped a friend get into my company, but she was rejected 66 times. Guess what, try 67 she got hired and 5 years in she's been promoted to manager. However, had she stopped at try 66, there would never be the opportunity for success. Keep yourself encouraged!