You just have low self esteem, kiddo?!

Wow, that's awful. I wonder why my previous nurse practitioner was in the mental health business. I thought he cared at first, but after a while I realized that he had no regard for my wellbeing and just wanted to throw meds at me, but never the meds I wanted to try that I researched (I like doing research, and I consider myself pretty good at it, and I don't consider myself to be good at very many things). He was ignorant and didn't want to do research on meds I brought up to see if they would be appropriate. He made me gain 116 lbs in two years by piling on antipsychotic after antipsychotic, and now that I have a new pdoc (an actual psychiatrist) who has let me come off most of my meds I am having more hallucinations which is leading him (and me) to wonder whether I might have schizoaffective, because I'm having hallucinations while not in a mood episode. Thankfully I don't mind my hallucinations. I just find them interesting so far.