I'm waiting on the phone call about my assessment last week. She said I would be given medication today.

I've been up and down for 2 days now. I became very desperate on Sunday for an hour. I would have made an attempt if I'd had medication in my home. I was "hyper" within an hour of this incident. I am concerned how "matter of fact" I am about this.

I spoke with my mother about this yesterday and told her I wasn't going to be comfortable keeping medication at home. I need to discuss this today with whomever calls me, but I'm nervous of the implications of this conversation.

I've just cancelled a job I had booked in to deal with this today. I feel the urge to go out and drink and buy some clothes, but I know I must deal with this. Maybe I'll spend some money later.

T.