Hi Dani
Welcome to PC! We're glad you are here and posting. There are a lot of wonderful folks here who know how you feel and have learned ways of coping that will share them with you. They will also listen and be supportive in any way they can be.
Try to keep posting....it's good for the soul to get it out there. I hope you find what you need here. Whenever you need something, don't be afraid to ask for it.
I hope today is a better day for you. Sending you good and healing thoughts!
Hugssssss
J