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Originally Posted by Hyperagitate
Getting another coke for another smoke.
Life owes me years of hedonia.
I feel like crap because I mostly talk about drugs on here. I just want to get that feeling back of being content. It's sad. Hopefully I can enjoy life eventually. I hate this it's so hard.
My leaving of this place will be pretty spiritual I'm sure.
Therapist even said that he did drugs especially marijuana and it gave him a different perspective on things.
Why the government wants to not legalize so we can see things differently hmm.. I don't know..
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Anhedonia is something I fear. My psychiatrist was left saying nothing after I told him how horrible it was. My only escape was alcohol. Waking in the morning wanting to feel SOMETHING was so addictive. What's the point of life if there are only sour moments, never sweet content feelings ever again??
If they treat that as though its just an unfortunate side effect then **** them. Take away all my creativity, take away all beauty and just live in a mechanical world that life isn't worth living.
I'd rather be on the brink of suicide than to never experience those transcendental moments in life where im at awe, feeling my heart beat, looking out the window thinking about art or beautyl