I do want to talk to him about it, but I get to the point, and can't say it. The whole shame thing. So I divert the topic. I have considered, and really want to try therapy. However, I don't have the money for it (typical broke college student) and I can't talk to the psychologists on campus because the minute I mention cutting, they say if I tell them I am and plan to continue I get kicked out of school for the semester and have to go into the hospital and my family is informed. It's a law in florida, to protect the university. And I can't take the semester off, I'll lose my scholoships. So I was going to wait until I graduated (2 years away) to talk to someone, because things weren't that bad until this semester where everything exploded. Now I don't know what to do.

I really feel to talk to him about it, it would have to be a spill all confession, where he isn't allowed to say anything until I've said everything. But I don't feel it's fair to him. I agree, he shouldn't be my only lifeline. And he wasn't until the awfulness that was this semester started, I had other friends who were aware and helped. But now they are dealing with their own problems, and can't deal with mine. Is it wrong of me to place this on him, even if he's asking for it? He's had other friends who had SI behavior, so I think he knows what he's getting into.

Thanks for listening, sorry these are so long. I just didn't know where else to talk about it.