Oh man! I hear you. I go through many stages of paranoia, anger, and revenge, blaming all sorts of things on people, society, the computer systems at work, etc. It affects my judgment to a point at which I can't think, make foolish decisions, and generally self destruct. I threw my trash barrels off the side of my house a few months ago. My wife said "uhhhh that's not normal behavior". And she was right.

So I went to get some help and so far, so good. I can take my trash out without the neighbors running for cover. And as you point out, nothing good comes from that sort of thinking.