i clearly don't have some people's ability to train therapists. I wish I did. I went to many therapists, on and off, my whole life. My issue has always been why am I not competent even when I try my hardest over time?

One thing that did tremendously was the therapist who, after I found a book that seemed to described me, arranged me to get tested for learning disabilities. What I wanted was to process that, to explore how much anxiety plays a part, to make peace with myself as I am and how I dealt both before and after I was diagnosed.

I could never get that because I couldn't, first, get therapists off their agenda for me, and, second and in a way more important, figure out how to interview a therapist to see if they would be able to help me. I've learned; I asked therapists in the initial session if they would be willing to work on my issue and leave the social stuff alone. They always agreed. They never meant it. In another words, they all lied in the initial interview.

I just fired my final therapist over just this issue. It's too bad because I really want insight into this and newly ex had the potential to help me but he's all into his own agenda for me.

Translation: "I'm not going to force you to do x." means, "However, I am going to force the topic on you in any way that I can."

Yet another therapy rant. In truth, I think therapy has the potential to work. If I thought I could work on my goals and not the therapists' I'd do it in a New York minute. I'm not the type to focus on the t relationship though I think my therapist wouldn't have minded that.

I do think therapy can work, if only therapists themselves didn't get in the way.