Hi abc, I'm sorry to hear how you're feeling. And that you were in an accident where your insurance hasn't been as helpful as they should be.

You say your mother is no longer there for you... Have you tried to reach out to her? Does she understand how you are feeling? If you haven't maybe you could try to talk to her and let her know how much you need her support right now?

The friends you have... If you've been there for them, help them, why not try to talk to just one of them? Maybe they will surprise you and be completely understanding. You could try opening up just a little and see how receptive they are?

Do you currently have a doctor or therapist? Are you treated for anything? And if you don't, could you try to see a counsellor or someone that is there to listen and not judge you? If nothing else, the people on these forums are great listeners and supporters. If you can't reach out in real life, you have already made a great first step here online!