Hi T,
I'm so frelling tired. And afraid . I sent you that email after I had x-rays done and you didn't reply. You've been doing that alot lately. Now, one side of my face is swollen from an abscessed tooth, despite the fact that last week two doctors told me that there wasn't anything there. I don't have the money to pay a dentist and the "free" dental clinic made it pretty clear that they don't want to see me again. I'm so frelling overwhelmed. I don't know that I'll have enough money for my share of the taxes and insurance. It feels like I'm spinning out of control. Or that I have no control. IDK. I'm so tired and feeling very alone. When I see you in your office, things seem to be getting back to what they were before all the bad happened, which is a good thing. But your silence between appointments is sending a totally different message. Is something going on in your life that is taking your attention? I know that you have a real life and that things happen IRL. I hope everything is OK with you and yours. If everything is ok in your private life, does your silence mean that you are tired of dealing with me? Or is this your way of telling me that I'm too dependent on you? Or am I right that nothing is real, especially me? I guess that the only thing that I know for sure is that I'm in so much pain, mentally and physically and i feel like I have no support. And I worry that I broke you.