Lately i choose to be a bit of a loner. Because i'm tired of drama and people's Bs. But at times i feel really lonely or like a loser. MY T told me i should be alone than rather be used and taken advantage of.She say's i should take more time getting to know people before i call them a friend or trust them.I go to baseball games and am known a bit by some of the baseball players. Some people will be snotty to me. But 5 minutes later when they see me talking to a baseball player. They all of a sudden act like they are my best friend. I have had that happen so many times. I just want to scream at people.Another thing is i have no car and i'm always time to meet people. Some times i leave 2 hours early to make sure i'm on time. But most folks i use to hang out with. Who have cars would show up 30 minutes to an hour late. One person would call me on her cell and tell me i better not go into Pop's untill she shows up. She wanted me to wait for her and i'd go inside and a few times she would not show up untill 2 hours later. I put my foot down and no longer hang out with this person.Some folks think i'm so nice that they can use me as a door mat. When i say what bothers me. I have been callled names and been told how dare you say anything to me you are supposed to be nice.
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