I am struggeling with the fact that a cousin, who was 17 years old, was left to babysit myself and my little sister when I was 8. I was molested and raped by him now, I have PTSD. I also have bipolar I wonder if the abuse in my early years( I had my arm broken too) caused all this illness ,,I am 37 with two kids and I have to get my life back on track! My husband had a stroke recently so, all this pain has left me suicidal at times. If anyone has any advice ,,, I could sure use it! Thanks Chris