WHAT THE HECK AM I SUPPPOSED TO DO?!?!?!

The muscle spasms are sort of gone, but I am still feeling absolutley horrible, panicky, out-of-my-head... GOD, I cannot DEAL with this anymore!!

Please, anyone, any kind of help would be so awesome. I can't find my Kolonpin, it doesn't help with the anxiety but I'm trying to, I dunno where mom put it.... if I could just sleep through this fine, even though I really don't want to because I'll wake up and it'll be worse... I can't DO anything when I'm like this, I hate it!! I just want it to stop and my parents are treating this like something that it's okay to take time with and wait to treat...

Should I just double up on my Lexapro? I'm taking half the dosage for somebody my age and weight (10mg versus 20mg), and that's specifically for anxiety. I dunno, I don't want to call my P-doc AGAIN... I guess I'm just really frustrated because everybody is so FREAKING calm and I am absolutley feeling like I want to rip my skin off.

sorry for the rant, all, but it's helped.
The more I post here the more I realize how much I've missed PC!!
Love you all,
~muse