my goal is to internalize my therapist within myself. he is my role model for what a healthy parent looks like. some of this has already happened, i can tell myself things that i know he would tell me. like if im upset, i can talk to myself and help myself to feel better and manage. i think, to me, this is the goal of therapy. yes it will end someday. its inevitable. but i think what needs to happen is the end should be gradual, agreed upon, and at a time when i feel healthy enough to be able to parent myself, keeping my T with me in my mind and heart, and feeling secure with our relationship and with how it has ended.