My mother was abusive. She had a mental breakdown and became quite violent with me. When my dad discovered it he removed me and got her to a hospital to help her. My dad was my hero and did what he could to keep me safe.

I was sent to live with some friends of his - he thought I would be safe there. They were not physically abusive but they were sexually abusive, singularly and jointly.

Knowing that mom hurt me was hard but I have always know that it happened, knowing that there was some sex abuse was not so much worse but I had learned to shut down and not be there for much of it. Knowing that his wife abused me sexually has been almost more than I can handle. It triggered me severely and I clawed up my arm to try and cope. But this is not what you are asking about.

My mother continued to abuse me off and on until I was sixteen and left home. I don't think she was stimulated by abusing me - I think she eached a level of stress she couldn't handle and I was a convient outlet for her.

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