Oh, I didn't mean you are insane or that what you are going through is completely out of the ordinary, at all! It just seems like what's happening upsets you, so talking to someone about it would probably help a lot. I think everyone has anxiety now and then, but some of us have it a lot more frequently and severely than others. Maybe look for a psychologist who has experience with anxiety and OCD or similar things. I'm not sure what kind of therapist you've seen in the past, but there can be huge differences based on education, experience, interests, and also just personalities.