circle5,

What I'm about to say isn't facetious or sarcastic: Since you haven't engaged in sexual activity and you have psychological issues, what about paying for sex with an understanding, patient professional? There's a site, which I believe is worldwide, called Backpage.com and all the women on there are pros. Craigslist, too. And there probably are sites that are just in the UK.

Maybe paying for it and health concerns are emotional barriers, but sex, even if it's superficial, is such an important part of being human and being emotionally/physically healthy, that avoiding it is creating problems. Being involved with someone is challenging and you don't seem ready for a full fledged relationship. But a lady, of any age, race, look or body type, who would be gentle and understanding, would get you over that 'hurdle'. Plus, playing with a real woman is so much fun! Porn is still cool but the real deal will make you fell s-o-o alive.