bloodyapple, I empathize about how it feels like to have a "close" friend that is really not that "close" at the end of the day... I don't know if this would help in any way but I thought I'd let you know that I have close friends that I really open up to and connect with a lot that are long distance from me and we communicate through emails and texts rather than meeting in person. Why I mentioned this is because maybe a suggestion if you feel your environment does not allow you to make proper friends in person is to reach out to friends online (maybe people you have met in the past but due to long distance lost touch with over time). Doing this has helped me feel less lonely. OF COURSE this does not equate the feeling of having a close friend in person that you can meet with, however, in my opinion it feels better than having no close friends at all. What are your thoughts on this bloodyapple?