I've looked it up, and it looks like i'm close to Bipolar II, but not quite. Not like it's a goal or anything though

The only "mania" symptoms I have are:

Extreme irritability
Racing thoughts and talking very fast, jumping from one idea to another
Distractibility, can't concentrate well
Spending sprees
Poor judgment (maybe )
Abuse of drugs, particularly cocaine, alcohol, and sleeping medications (alcohol to calm the racing and multitude of voices in my head. Not actual voices I guess, but just being in 10 different places at once)

The thing I can't get my head around though, well, two things. One, there is absolutely NOTHING good about my possible mania. No Euphoria, better self esteem, none of that.

And two, the thing that triggers it is being very depressed, and then I find something to focus on. For instance, my motorcycle. I have nowhere near enough money to modify my bike like I want, but i'll have 5-8 windows open, reading forums, finding out every last detail about the modification that I want to make. Talking to vendors, seeing what the best price is, all of those things, but STILL knowing that there is no way I can afford it. Once i'm done with that, back down to depression, or I find a new thing to put my energy towards, even if it's completely irrational.

Weird...

I don't really care too much about whether I technically fit Bipolar, or hypomania, but if I do exhibit some of the symptoms, but not enough to be considered Bipolar, i'm hoping some of the Bipolar meds can help with that.

Thanks for responding, I really appreciate it! I just need to hear others answer for some reason.