Maybe I have no motive to live, that's what others put on me. When they do that I'm trapped.
I act out it doesn't help makes it worse. Then the stigma of me doesn't get any better. I wish they see how much they hurt me.

I wish I am free. I get scared looking at the people I want to talk to on my fb messenger, I get beliefs and hard feelings barge in how much they hate me, how much I take up their air they breathe and how much my feelings are nothing.

It's weird, I don't think like this usually, but it shows up and I fear people. I despise people, many days. It makes me not look at myself and many days. I don't want to be around anyone.

I don't know what to think of this.