I honestly can't do it anymore...

I am struggling not to go through with my plan.

I keep telling myself that I just need to wait until Thursday of next week, my last exam, and I will be free. Free to fly away...

But that day seems so far away...

I just don't want to keep trying anymore.

I can't tell anyone IRL either, as everyone thinks I am doing great.

But I am drowning and my lungs are filled with water...