I feel the way you feel oneinabillions. I worked in a place I was bullied for 12 years because I felt it was all I could get as I did not have a college degree and it payed well for not having schooling. I woke up everyday wanting to die. It escalated all my mental health symptoms
. The best thing that actually happened was I got fired for a breach of policy. I thought it would be the end of the world and I would not be able to handle the flooding of emotions of worthlessness but I actually felt a heavy weight lifted off of me. I actually got unemployment for 6 months and we moved out of state. During that time I pursude a new path of fitness and am trying to turn my hobby/passion into a job. Personal Training. I am not sure if I can make a living off of it but i am lucky that my husband makes enough money so I can take my time finding work. I just started sending out resumes and have interviews lined up. I have a strong inner critic that always tells me I am not good enough and will be laughed out of the place.
Honestly I do not want to go out to work ever again personally but what does one do all day then?
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When a child’s emotional needs are not met and a child is repeatedly hurt and abused, this deeply and profoundly affects the child’s development. Wanting those unmet childhood needs in adulthood. Looking for safety, protection, being cherished and loved can often be normal unmet needs in childhood, and the survivor searches for these in other adults. This can be where survivors search for mother and father figures. Transference issues in counseling can occur and this is normal for childhood abuse survivors.
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