Oh I totally get that! That is why I am confused. Was it because she pulled away, or a combo that I did want her but my fear kept me from a emotional relationship? I had major walls up and it was safe. The tough part is she truly gets me and accepts my BPD. Its hard to remain positive that finding that is tough to find.
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Originally Posted by kaliope
you may want to consider that the only reason you decided you wanted her is because she decided it was over and she didnt want a relationship anymore. that was abandonment as well. when you realized you couldnt have her, that made you finally want her. does that make sense?
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