Maybe you have not failed. We have failed as individuals to reach you, your parents have failed to nurture those rays of hope that add sunshine to life, society as a whole has failed to provide an environment where positive energy reaches you.

Better not to blame yourself for things you did not start.

But still you can keep trying. The definition of success is to try 1000 times and failing but trying for the 1001st time. Never give up my friend.