Thanks for the comment. I was a professional chef at one the the top rated restaurants in the dc area. I did great while manic as long as I didn't go into psychosis. Depression killed me and the bosses noticed. From what I hear the long hours and the waiting around then going fast isn't good for my disorder (a nurse job i hear is comparable). I'm looking into other jobs for me. Everything you described sounds just like me. The mental confusion I have a lot of, same with the social anxiety. I don't know anything about disability or how to get it but I may be looking into that soon. I'm a mess right one trying out new meds and so far none are working. It's a struggle but I know I can get threw thank you for your support and care. Know I wish you the best as well too