i feel like i am just in between here (outside world) and nowhere yet a blend of somewhere inside...the last few months have been the worst in a while. it's like the past and inside colliding with the outside.

it makes no sense. i am lucky if i can get through work (at home thankfully) and focus enough on it before i can't anymore.

i am under a lot of stress so that is why this is all worse now...but things are stirring more than they have in a while including new information that i am still questioning.

i just hope i can find my way back out again...i guess like you, i am always changing too to some degree, AlwaysChanging2...it just isn't necessarily daily...sometimes not for weeks or months...