A guy said that he would pay me back for all the coffees and smokes.

I gave him 200 dollars 3 times while he said he would get money from the bank. Last time I gave 200 was when he chipped in 50 and he came back with 60 dollars and got ripped off he said.

I got screwed over because I wasn't focusing on getting better now I have to explain all the transactions from the bank machine.

I have no money left and probably have another 600 dollar phone bill.

I'm so upset with myself. I smoked a LOOOT of it. I can't get high from it probably at lethal doses or without meds but he could.

My parents especially my mom will be disappointed in me and if she cries, I will too. I wouldn't be able to take it and right now it brings tears to my eyes.

I deserve this. Don't tell me I don't because you know yourself.