so i joined this site hoping id find somewhere to fit in. im a nonbinary trans boy. i have NO interest in masculinity bc of its inherent violence and it makes me generally uncomfortable, so i dont want to be a man in any sense. this confuses and outrages a lot of trans guys ive tried to be friends with bc they think masculinity is key to being a guy, or at least transitioning/passing. i feel like i often dont fit in with binary trans ppl bc im nonbinary, and i dont fit in with cis ppl cause i cant easily explain my identity.

ive started using it/its pronouns since they/them didnt sound right to me, but some ppl refuse to call me by my new pronouns bc "they dont like them". im tired of having to change bits of my identity to make my transness more acceptable to everyone.

i love makeup and "womens" clothes, so ill never pass as male, and im not interested in giving up that stuff in order to pass. i shouldnt have to give up part of myself to be seen as male. im just so lost. im worried that even within a trans community, no one understands me.